thursday ^-^ :D because this is the day that i'm planning what to do in weekends ^-^

*thinking about it on friday makes my head a little bit weird* ^-^

i didn't even have the chance to say goodbye... hmmm... i miss her... i don't know why.. i want to take her hand and say everything, every word, every feeling that i want to show... she left so sudden.. sigh.. i hope she comes back... even though its gonna take quite some time though... i'llb be here... just here.... i'll be waiting for you... coz when you come back, you'll find me here... i promise....

i'm really craving to play kingdom hearts... listening to the beat of its OST makes my heart jumps :D hahaha! :D i want to finished the game again for some reason... i hope victor would lend me his precious ps2 or atleast a memory card.! waaa!! KH1 really strikes interst in this past few days, scribbling sora and his crew, listening OST in my ipod, waaa!!!

yesterday's my dad's 40th day of death and we celebrated it here in lucena. it's really hard to accept the fact that dad's gone... physically... i really miss him.... the way he shout at me, say praises, scold me of getting myself hanging in my computer every night, i miss the way he cook, the way he talk, the way he snore, the way he laugh, everything.. i really miss him.... i didn't even say goodbye or even i love you... i never imagine that the day that he ask me for a blanket would be the last thing that i'm going to hear from him... the day that im going to see him in that bed... the day that he's lying in the hospital bed while the doctor's trying to revive him... i never imagine that the day that i'm going to see him smile is the last day that im going to see him... i really never imagine that the last time that i'll see him will be the last day that i'm going to regret in my life... i'll regret that very moment that i'm given the chance to say that i love him... i miss him, his hands, his fat tummy... i miss so much... i cant take that i didn't even say thanks for the things that he have done for me in 18 years of my life... the time that i first gulp some air, until the last second of his life... i din't even say sorry for the things that i've done, the way i act, the unfinished chores, the time i cook and burned the rice. i didn't even say goodnight or goodmorning or even afternoon eventhough he's just one text away. i didn't even realized that i'm just being trained for me to grow up.. i just miss him.. very very much... no more good cooking.. no more snoring at night, no more "CHES MAG SAING KA NA", no one's going to wait for me late at night after gimmicks, no one's going to drive the fancy orange motor bike, no one's going to be watching while sleeping DVD's at night.... i really miss him..! every little chance has been given to me, and i take that for granted.. i didn't even take even a second of that chance........... Dad i miss you...

yahoo.(?) hahahaha! :D i most often use yahoo :P

Growing up from a community which grows and furnish anime lovers like me,*cough*

newly released manga on bleach! :D WEE!! :D cant wait.! :D go ukitake!! :D this is getting more interesting!

Here are some kind of advice to overcome and dominate the world! *roar!*



: get your zanpakuto and slash hollows to dust! :D be ready kon!
: going to the "pit-of-doom" with tenma-chan in school rumble!
: change your form to a frog then use kagebunshin!
: use the ultra strong cero!! WAAA!!! *whoosh!!*
: use an artificial soul tablet to perform tricks with yourself! kon style! :D
: use the witch's power *tsubasa reservoir chronicles" to transport you to other dimension. *pretty cool"
: use the internet and call the "hell girl" emna ai during midnight.... *spooky*
: get yourself a geasse *code geasse* then use it by telling yourself you forgot that you have one.!
: be sure to change your cellphone number in CC's phone to "not-a-pizza-house"
: get yourself a mask, wear a dark cloak with a cool outfit inside, then be ready to be "zero!"
: go to aizen-sama's lair in las noches!
: donald and goofy to the rescue!! :D king mickey will also be there!
: be ready to use your hollow form!