unworthy
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 you MUST smile......

happy christmas livejournal!

we need more affection than we know...
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i need you..
. i need your embrace...
i need you sweet kisses..
i need your loving hands...
i need to feel your heart...
i need to see those smiles...

i just need you right now...
can you be sweet for a moment,,,
can you speak those words,,
will you stare at me...

i want to feel you breath...
i want to hear those words...
i want to be beside you..
i want you to complete me...
i need more affection...

ok...
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no more ***** for me then.... :(

note to self:
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everything is affected by your actions... maybe a little... but still affected...

live...
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just when you think things will turn out just fine...
just when you think things will be over...
just when you think mixed feeling will soon fade..
it will also be the time you will be caught off guard...

i cant think right anymore...
i dont know what to do, what to say,..
all i can do is feel this ambiance surrounding me...
i cant promise much... i may hurt someone unintentionally and unreasonably bad..
i dont know what to say...
even "sorry" is really hard right now...
im down on my knees...
is this what i am...?
please...


 



a week of reuniting shadow...
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somehow, it feels like im not me..
it feels so down to the ground..
i dont know what to do..
its the same old me, get used to it..
its been a long time since i feel this way...
i hate this feeling...
i hate it when i say yes when people
are asking me if im alright even though im not..
i cant express what i feel...
its just too cloudy to see...
i murmured my words,
my actions are vivid...
its all the same
mixed emtions that i cant barely express..
somehow i feel incomplete...
in a matter of seconds,
my mind turns the table...
i feel like somethings not right...
but somehow, im thankful...
thankful to the persons i can talk with..
who can make me smile, laugh, and the feeling
of acceptance..
the reunion of my sudden sickness,
an alternate ego of my world...
the shadow inside me..
the one that equalizes my extrovert ego...
the lichen that sucks up my sanity...
the one i call depression...



Note to self: 2
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 dont ever lie to someone that your ok, when it shows your not..

...
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 it hurts like hell... :(  dont tear me up please... :((

for edit, ^_^ song verse two..
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to love someone is nothing,
to be loved by someone is something,
to love and to be love is everything...

through the winds i hear your voice
, in the clouds i see your name,
living life without you is not the same

you have no idea how good it feels to 
wake up in the morning knowing that
you are mine, and i am yours donna joy juacalla....
<3 :D

Note to self:
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when choosing a haircut salon or barber shop, please think before you enter...

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